For some time now, I’ve been listening to global conversation regarding our changing times and how our reality will unfold from 2012 and beyond. It’s amazing how many reality tunnels are out there. And, although I try to research as much as I can,without a doubt, I’ve only stumbled upon a tiny fraction of what’s perceived to be going on out there.

What David Icke calls “truth vibrations” are really shaking up our collective reality and lifting a lot of veils.

In years gone by, living my own version of Waking Life, I heard the call of home/heaven. My inner guidance led me to explore religions, philosophies, and all sorts of belief systems.

I bought book upon book, listened to all sorts of people who seemed to know something (at that time I hoped to find someone who knew “the truth”), joined groups and left, and then wandered the surreal terrain of this wild world some more…

Several times I became stuck — trying to make myself believe a religion or someone’s perception of an ideal world. But something kept pushing me to break free. Heaven, after all, was freedom itself. In contrast, belief always ended up feeling like prison.

“It is by going down into the abyss that we recover the treasures of life. Where you stumble, there lies your treasure.” — Joseph Campbell

These days, like many out there, I’m finding myself being made aware of all sorts of contrasting views on what’s really happening on the planet. Some of these folks, who seem to share the same focus on liberating humans from self-destructive ignorance, disagree with one other so strongly that they label each other as disinfo agents, liars, delusional, etc. These waking voices include patriots, channelers, alternate media, research experts, light-workers, martial artists, whistle blowers, new-age gurus, messiahs, anti-christs and ET contactees.

It’s always disconcerting to hear such discord. Just as it’s disconcerting when I find my personal world in disharmony.

I’ve gone down (or at least eavesdropped on) quite a few rabbit holes. More often than not, what I hear seems “off” somehow — too narrow, too limiting, whatever…

But sometimes I am completely surprised by whatever I’m exploring. Hints of who we really are pop up. A refreshingly new-to-me perspective presents itself or potentially-liberating technological advances are  revealed .   (And sometimes I’m just temporarily stuck in someone’s perception of what is most real.)

“Wow, really?”

And then, thinking everybody else must want to hear it, I’ll share whatever it is with my very tolerant son and a couple of very tolerant friends.

A few weeks ago, my internet access became temporarily somewhat limited due to computer problems. This happened at the same time that I felt it necessary to crawl out of the tunnels and get some fresh air.

Enough. At least for now.

Not that the details of unfolding events in this vast shared reality aren’t  important. Of course, they are. That’s why I research as much as I do.

It’s just that they aren’t permanent. And all will sort itself out as we awaken to who we are. Lies will simply disappear as truths are revealed.

“We look for the Secret – the Philosopher’s Stone, the Elixir of the Wise, Supreme Enlightenment, ‘God’ or whatever…and all the time it is carrying us about…”   — Robert Anton Wilson

My wiser self wanted a chance to remind me that none of these perceptions, no matter how powerfully stated or documented, is more important than the truth that flows through my own being.

What does my own truth say? It has nothing to do with extraterrestrials, militias, governments, monetary systems, or alternative energy sources.

Be more loving, it says. You’ve always wanted to live a brilliant life, it says. Your brilliance is your love. Be that. Be true.

And then…

A few days ago, I happened to catch sight of someone who is no longer a part of my life.

It felt strange to see him. I knew there was a message there for me.

Huuummm. I wondered. What was I to pay attention to here?

The relationship had ended oddly, with a bit of drama swirling about and widely varying viewpoints on what had happened during some unfolding events.

At the time, my inner knowing was to let go, move on, return to love…

Upon seeing him again, I realized that, even though I told myself and others that none of it mattered to me anymore, I still, on occasion, found myself wondering what really had happened. I wanted to know whose version was “right”.

What? Certainly, I know better than to get stuck in the right and wrong trap. What do I keep forgetting?

“I’d far rather be happy than right any day.” ― Douglas Adams

Could it be more important to be free, therefore happy, than to be right?

As I write this, there is something nagging at the back of my mind…something related to the reality-altering power of taking responsibility for everything…something linked to the interpretation of ho’oponopono teachings as expressed by Ihaleakala Hew Len, wherein he offers the idea that the main objective of hoʻoponopono is getting to a state of zero, a state of no memories.

“Reality is merely an illusion, albeit a very persistent one.” — Albert Einstein

Something is telling me that we can fast-forward out of entangling situations when one or more of us take full responsibility for creation of all that we are experiencing — even if (and maybe, especially if) we don’t understand what’s going on. We only need to have the awareness that it is vibrationally out of balance.

I have experimented with his mantra in the past.  “I’m sorry. Please forgive me. I love you. Thank you.”

This declaration to creation, erased all images of victims and abusers, right ones and wrong ones.  A zero point was created in my mind. Therefore, healing could take place and harmony re-established.

Taking responsibility is quite different from taking blame or from assuming a position of right or wrong. It is acknowledging one’s true position as a creator god.

“The only way to deal with an unfree world is to become so absolutely free that your very existence is an act of rebellion.” — Albert Camus

So, it seems to me, in this moment, the questions we should ask ourselves — both globally and individually — is not whose version of reality is most real/persistent, but how do we keep the energies open for creation of the new world that we all seek.

Perhaps we should step out of our tunnels and ask ourselves:

Are we loving?

Do we recognize the power of our words and our actions?

Are we standing in integrity?

Are we supporting and liberating one another to see and be who we really are?

Do we understand our true power in creating this reality?

If so, we’ve found our truth.

Aligned with our source, we’ve found our eternal brilliance.